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Yoga – Healing – Flow

A traveling studio founded by Brittany Boles, Magical Yoga inspires people to discover the magnitude of human potential on & off the mat.

yoga means union: body-breath-mind-spirit

more than movement

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Ashtanga Flow at Viva Soul Studio March 26, 2019 at 9:30 am – 10:30 am
Restorative Yoga March 27, 2019 at 4:00 pm – 5:00 pm Yoga4Life
Restorative at Yoga for Life March 29, 2019 at 5:30 pm – 6:30 pm

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My face after another rejection rolls in ... last night, I awoke before midnight, called to deal with my feelings of hurt and unworthiness. This is the story of an unplanned ritual demanded by the goddesses themselves: Yesterday on the equinox, under the full Aries moon, I awoke from a nightmare just before midnight. I knew it would come ... I took precautions, like bandaids, before I fell asleep. My fear, anger, and hurt had been coming for me for weeks ... ever since that last rejection rolled in, I knew. I had let my life’s work turn into my ego, and it housed my hopes and worthiness like a prison as it sat mostly unread in a file no one could see. Writing it was cathartic, passionate, purposeful. Waiting for it to “become” has been torture. And I am the torturer. With each rejection, I felt my conditioning spark into a negative self talk smolder. Quiet, at first, and a bit philosophical, like a new understanding of poverty mentality or the sensation of lack. Then it grew louder, and began to feel like grief in my chest. And, still, I fed the fire. “It’s garbage,” I decided. A friend shook free these embers, combed them out of me like a healer who sees images of shadows upon the wall of a cave. He said if I refused to do this work, to look at my emotions, they would come for me harder and harder ... and I knew. I felt it rise up, there at the cafe, and I knew what I had to do. But I did not do that. So I awoke more terrified and tired than I have been in many, many years. And there was still time to do the work, to give it up to winter and allow spring to flow - the Aries moon demanded it of me. “Get up,” I heard, more like a tug than a whisper. “I can’t move,” I begged, more like a whisper than a sob. “Please, just let me sleep.” “Do it now.” Through the paralysis of near-midnight nightmare fear, I crawled. I lit my altar and kneeled before it. The flames were unsteady and insistent, demanding more of me. “You don’t remember what it’s like to be down here, to be human,” I began as the tears flowed down my face. I poured out my anger at the goddesses, — [continued below]

“Whatever else my life is with its poems and its music and its glass cities, it is also this dazzling darkness coming down the mountain, breathing and tasting; all day I think of her— her white teeth, her wordlessness, her perfect love.” -Mary Oliver, “Spring”

These are the things that we do. Victims of trauma, orphans, People Who Have Lost - call it what we will, the hungry fear shadow lives like a speck inside each bubble of joy. She writes it best, my little sister, that story of our mother and the tiny valentine hearts. I know that’s why she sent the sparkly little flowers: because, in case she dies, we’ll find these reminders of her love scattered in unexpected places, like glitter-memories, for years to come. I save voicemails just so I can listen to the voices of the people I love .... in case they die. I save cards so I can always remember the love, see their writing, hold them close. “Poverty mentality” is about more than money. It’s a conditioning to disappointment. This mindset is really a HEARTset born of repeated, soul crushing disappointments big and small. Big, like when your mom breaks outta rehab to drunkenly burn down your apartment on Easter. Small, like when you can’t go to the dance because nobody is sober enough to bring you. These pile up in our hearts like bricks, and, after a while, a wall forms to protect us - not from pain - but from believing. Poverty mentality isn’t about money. It’s about steeling ourselves from the seemingly inevitable pain of loss. Each tiny flower is sparkling here in front of me now, today, and I know that my sister’s eyes are sparkling the same. I believe in us. But ..... I’m still not throwing them away.

I get scared. I think about giving up . . . on my dreams, my career, sometimes even my life. • As a spiritual teacher, I add guilt and shame into this anxiety cocktail because I feel that I’m supposed to be “beyond this by now.” How can people trust me to guide them if I feel lost? How can I trust myself to do so? Doubt then enters the mix. What if everything I teach and believe is nothing more than a grand delusion? Why isn’t “it” working faster? Am I doing it wrong? • This fall, I took a selfie while in the throws of the worst anxiety episode I had experienced in many years. I was supposed to be leading an online program to help us get our sh*t together, but instead my sh*t was falling apart. I had realized my studio, my beloved sacred space, no longer served me; and, I was preparing to release it. Even though I had specific guidance from Spirit about what would come next, I couldn’t muster the faith to trust in that vision. • Something about that image, with my wide, scared eyes, moves me. I see a beauty in vulnerability that hints of depth. My eyes are full and round, bright with tears, but so definitely alive that even my fear gives me hope. Those eyes – my eyes – have been through hell AND have seen the light. Somehow, the light still shines out of them. • But I didn’t see that, then. I refused to follow my own advice. Rather than turning inward, I avoided my feelings. And, as always, they came for me anyway. • ... new post is up on BrittanyBoles.com

I needed to get away from the weight of the living one day, and so my feet carried me to this cemetery. Mostly quiet, souls having moved on, it was a great relief. Profound silence. But a few fragments remained, and I was pulled to certain stones, select trees ... shared moments with those who’d long passed. In a corner not much visited, a mighty Pine had lost a bough. It fell on top of and all around this grave, and I could not ignore the calling. I sat on this freshly fallen bough and heard the spirit of the man say to me how lonely he had been, and still was. “Share with me your life,” was all he asked. I showed him my child, my lover, my losses and victories. Other spirits took notice and floated over to “listen” to my life. Then, a simple but heartbreakingly profound request: “Will you play us a song?” As my eyes filled with tears, I asked, “what kind of song?” “A sad song.” So I played @flora_cash and cried with these spirits. When it was over, they asked for “one more song, a happy song.” I played @xavierruddofficial “follow the sun,” and looked into the blue sky, just as I felt them doing. They thanked me as spirits do, with a gentle impression of smiles nearly forgotten, and floated away. I placed a sprig of pine, still fresh and fragrant with sticky sap, upon the grave of the one who called me there, and left. We were all lighter for having shared this simple kindness. A moment of presence with the “dead” brought me more peace and gratitude than I had felt in a long time. ❤️

SHADOW WORK TIME! Online card reading special this week only! 💫 It’s getting darker, which means we are being called to examine who we are and what we want beneath the mask. Like the trees who have shed their leaves, we have an opportunity to find our strength in darkness this time of year. Darkness and shadow are not “bad” or “scary.” It’s not black magic. Shadow work means turning deeply inward to find those bits of ourselves that we hid away, denied, forgot, or lost. Peter Pan went looking for his shadow one day, recognizing that in order to be whole he had to reconnect with the part of him that adults pirated away. What parts of you are hidden, ready to be brought into the light of your own wholeness? “Diving into darkness” is a gift of mine; I have such a passion and love for this type of work because it’s another way to rise up, to wake up, to forgive and become whole. I leave for sunny Florida on Friday morning for some much-needed reflection. Before then, I want to help a few of you do some of this shadow work. I’m offering TEN shadow/light card readings between now and Thursday night, online, for $25 each. We’ll do it right here on Messenger and you can PayPal or Venmo or whatever me the cash. First come, first read. Let’s see what spirit, moonlight, and shadow have to reveal to you. It’s time to let our lost boy out into the light. 💫

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